Thursday, September 20, 2012

Overcome

So, I've literally started and stopped writing this post for several weeks now.  Being the perfectionist I am, and the intensely private person I can be (though you may not think so...) it's been a difficult subject for me to broach. I feel compelled to share the full story of our little family - so here goes.

Since coming back to work, life has been moving a break-neck speed.  Going here, going there, going everywhere!  Sarah's been a road warrior with me, and such a trooper!  The back and forth stresses us both out a little, but... for the time being - it is working.  On top of the craziness of my schedule, I've been battling Post-Partum Depression.  It's not a fun thing.  It's not something people talk about.  The doctor initially put me on some meds, which helped.  I even came off them for a while when Sarah came home.  But, once I started back to work - the dark cloud has come back with a vengeance.  I'm tired.  I'm angry.  I'm stressed. My hormones have still not settled down.  My life feels like this roller coaster of emotions that just will

not.

slow.

down.

I finally broke down and called the doctor and she upped my meds.  I have just started the increased regimen.  It has definitely helped me focus on the positive things in life and start to enjoy life with Sarah again.      I no longer want to punch holes through the walls and I don't want to curl up in a ball all day long.  While I'm still battling, still struggling, still coming out of hiding - it is getting better day by day.  Thankfully.  I had about reached my wits end.

Because... really... Who wouldn't love this face?

9-20-12