Thursday, May 30, 2013

One Year

My dear sweet, inquisitive Sarah,

A year ago, I was very sick and I didn't even know it.  When the doctor told me that I was going to have you that night I was very scared.  I was terrified that I would lose you.  I didn't get to meet you on your birthday, or even the day after.  Everything happened so very quickly and yet time stood still.  I thank God every day for the medical team that rallied around you and me to make sure we both were healthy and strong.  I often wish I could go and show you off to the nurses in the NICU and to the doctors who helped you.  You truly are a miracle baby.

We have had quite a year together as a family of three.  You are incredibly intelligent and inquisitive. Nothing gets by your watchful eye.  You must explore everything and are always happier when you are outside and on the move.  I must say, I think your daddy may have found a little camping and hiking buddy.

People tease me for taking so many photos of you - but I just can't help it.  You are really the most beautiful child I have ever known (even though I'm a little biased).  I pray that as you grow, I am wise in helping you balance your confidence in your inner and outer beauty that is evident, and not being hung up on what you may perceive to be flaws. 

As we continue to grow together, I also ask that you forgive me in my moments of failure and insufficency.  I pray that you forgive me when I lose my temper and get angry.  I pray that you learn forgiveness and grace.

You are my sweet little miracle and I thank God for your life.  Your daddy and I love you so very much and cannot wait to watch the wonderful, beautiful, intelligent young woman you develop into.