Friday, July 25, 2014

Say Goodbye

It's been about a week since we said goodbye to my final surviving Great Grandmother.  It was a bittersweet weekend at home with the entire family gathered.  I don't remember the last time we were able to have virtually everyone there.  Unfortunately there were a few spouses and kids unable to make the trip, but everyone we grew up with around the Christmas tree was there.  It was good.

We spent 5-6 hours on Friday in the funeral home reminiscing, looking at pictures, laughing, sharing stories... Sarah (who unfortunately missed a nap that day) decided to run up and down the hall of the funeral home singing "Let it Go!" at the top of her lungs...  I, as her mother, cringed a little at the boisterousness and irony.  However, it did bring many smiles and laughter.

I am so overwhelmed by how blessed and how truly special it is that I have spent 28 years of my life having Great Grandparents around.  I have fond memories of 4 of them, and was especially close with the last two who passed.  It's part of our decision to want children at a young age.  I hope and pray every day that my grandparents will stay healthy and around for at least another 20 years so that Sarah and any future children can learn their stories and have fond memories as I have.  (If you're one of my grandparents reading this - take care of yourselves!  We want you around for a long, long time!)

As for Great Grandma Becht, my biggest regret is that I hadn't seen her since Christmas.  In some ways, I am sure it was a blessing. She was still mostly herself, albeit very quiet.  When we left there I had a deep sense in my soul that it might be the last time I saw her.  My intuition turned out to be right.  The thing that broke my heart the most that night was seeing the tears fill her eyes as we said goodbye.  I honestly think she had the same feeling I did.  She missed the family.  She missed being home.  She missed the holidays with a room full of family.

While I tear up every time I think back to the last time I saw her tear filled eyes, I have to smile a little knowing that she is truly at home now.  She's been reunited with the love of her life that she spent 70 years with.  I know that she's reunited with friends and other family members that had long since passed.  She's watching over my angel baby, Isaiah, and telling him stories about me as a child.  Most importantly she's with Jesus and has a new body with no more pain.

We love you, Grandma.

December 20, 2013 - our last visit with Great Grandma Becht

So say goodbye 'cause you'll be leaving soon

I know it's hard and I'll be missing you
I know it's time to say goodbye

Friday, July 11, 2014

Baby Mine

Well, we've made it safely into the 2nd trimester!  Praise God!  My office lighting and computer screen were causing a lot of nausea in that 1st trimester.  After about a week and a half, I think I can safely say that it's all gone!  Wahoo!!  That doesn't mean foods sometimes won't make me a little unsettled, but it's not the unending waves of nausea that I had.

I'm barely starting to pop out a little bit.  I've been in maternity pants for a while now, though due to bloating and just not being very comfortable in my regular pants.  Now I'm slowly incorporating some of the maternity tops as well as my belly slowly shows itself.

Next week I go to the doctor for my monthly check up.  I am planning on taking Sarah with me to try and introduce her further to the idea of a sibling.  I try to talk about momma having a baby.  She LOVES looking at the babies in the nursery room at school.  I asked her yesterday if she wanted a baby at home, and she said yes!  I asked if she wanted a baby brother or sister and she said no to both.  HA!  Not sure how that's going to work out for her.

We started potty training a couple weeks ago, and I use the term lightly because we've had little to no success...  Guess we're just going to have to wait a bit.  She has all the signs of being ready, but gets stage fright I think.  She's been very insistent about needing to go to the potty, especially for #2, but when she gets there she starts crying for her diaper.  :(  Poor baby... Really just hoping to have her out of diapers by the time the new little one gets here - really don't want to be buying two sizes!  Yikes!

This morning some of our good friends had their second precious baby and it's just making me dream about what our little guy/gal is going to look like!  Will we have a duplicate of Sarah?  Or a completely different mixture of her daddy and I?  Only time will tell.

Right now, I am heavily wading through names trying to pick out a boy and a girl name before our big gender appointment in August.  I know there's a very, very slim chance that we might find out next week at our appointment depending on if we get an ultrasound or not.  Our doctor loves ultrasounds, which I'm not upset by!  I love seeing the baby grow!!  I have a favorite girl name, but dad isn't 100% on it yet - and neither of us are happy with any of the boy options.  We even polled Facebook, which was hilarious.  Thanks, guys, for your suggestions!  If it's a boy, I guess we'll be forced to pick something out!!

Until next time... Dreaming of my sweet little one.  Yearning to cuddle and breathe in that baby smell.

Ultrasound picture from 6/16/14 - 11 weeks