Overcome
So, I've literally started and stopped writing this post for several weeks now. Being the perfectionist I am, and the intensely private person I can be (though you may not think so...) it's been a difficult subject for me to broach. I feel compelled to share the full story of our little family - so here goes.
Since coming back to work, life has been moving a break-neck speed. Going here, going there, going everywhere! Sarah's been a road warrior with me, and such a trooper! The back and forth stresses us both out a little, but... for the time being - it is working. On top of the craziness of my schedule, I've been battling Post-Partum Depression. It's not a fun thing. It's not something people talk about. The doctor initially put me on some meds, which helped. I even came off them for a while when Sarah came home. But, once I started back to work - the dark cloud has come back with a vengeance. I'm tired. I'm angry. I'm stressed. My hormones have still not settled down. My life feels like this roller coaster of emotions that just will
not.
slow.
down.
I finally broke down and called the doctor and she upped my meds. I have just started the increased regimen. It has definitely helped me focus on the positive things in life and start to enjoy life with Sarah again. I no longer want to punch holes through the walls and I don't want to curl up in a ball all day long. While I'm still battling, still struggling, still coming out of hiding - it is getting better day by day. Thankfully. I had about reached my wits end.
Because... really... Who wouldn't love this face?
Since coming back to work, life has been moving a break-neck speed. Going here, going there, going everywhere! Sarah's been a road warrior with me, and such a trooper! The back and forth stresses us both out a little, but... for the time being - it is working. On top of the craziness of my schedule, I've been battling Post-Partum Depression. It's not a fun thing. It's not something people talk about. The doctor initially put me on some meds, which helped. I even came off them for a while when Sarah came home. But, once I started back to work - the dark cloud has come back with a vengeance. I'm tired. I'm angry. I'm stressed. My hormones have still not settled down. My life feels like this roller coaster of emotions that just will
not.
slow.
down.
I finally broke down and called the doctor and she upped my meds. I have just started the increased regimen. It has definitely helped me focus on the positive things in life and start to enjoy life with Sarah again. I no longer want to punch holes through the walls and I don't want to curl up in a ball all day long. While I'm still battling, still struggling, still coming out of hiding - it is getting better day by day. Thankfully. I had about reached my wits end.
Because... really... Who wouldn't love this face?
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| 9-20-12 |
So glad to hear things are getting better.. I have been following your story for some time now and after no post for so long I was a lil worried.. I too had PPD and I too know the daily struggles. Stay strong momma and know that "this too shall pass"
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